How I’m Living

I’m in my second year living in St. Johns (November 2018) and twenty-third year living in Portland (March 1997). I’m in my fifty-first year of being alive (October 1969) and my fourth year as a diagnosed autistic (October 2016). I’m in my second year of learning new things about my health (August 2018); including indeterminate fatigue issues, persistent bladder issues, to-be-tested lymph node questions, and discovering that I’ve aphantasia, dyspraxia, and "severely deficient autobiographical memory". I’ve put off seeking a psychoconsultant both knowledgeable about adult autism and covered by my insurance until next year, when I’ll try to find one who does “walk and talk” therapy (December 2018). I’m coming to the end of my seventh successful month of my first-ever medication for anxiety (February 2020). I’m in my nth year of not feeling like much more than a failure and a fuckup. I’m financially dependent upon a fixed-income family member 3,000 miles away (?). Like everyone else, I’m in whatever week month this is of a global pandemic.

What I’m Doing

After a long era of both disinterest a lack of interest in blogging, then a brief sojourn on Medium after my autism diagnosis, then a short exploration of, then a longer exploration of, I’ve migrated back to self-hosted WordPress and more or less am consistently back to blogging; I’ve started importing select entries from across my earlier blogging periods. I’m also mulling a reduction in my internet footprint overall; I’m off of Google entirely, drawing down from Instagram, and considering a timed-deletion presence on Twitter.

What I’m Reading

My new fiction read is The Seep by Chana Porter; my continuing nonfiction read is The Restless Clock by Jessica Riskin; and I’ve recently finished The Book of Lost Saints by Daniel José Older. So far this year, I’ve read thirty-two books, with fifteen waiting to read next and twenty-four still to buy or borrow.

What I’m Watching

This week I’ll be watching Stargirl, Wynonna Earp, The 100, Marvel’s Agents of SHIELD, Doom Patrol, and starting in on the finale season of The Rain. I’m into season two of Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts on weekend mornings, I’m starting the final season in my Justice League Unlimited rewatch, and I’m into part two of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina.

What I’m Listening To

In music, lately I’ve been listening to Cowboy Junkies, 10,000 Maniacs, Olivia Cornell & the Precious, Metric, and Marian Call; in podcasts (which I don’t really do), I’m still listening to Social Distance, but not really anything else.

Where I’m Appearing

My thoughts on community during the pandemic appeared in a recent Civic Signals newsletter (April 2020); my views on autistic burnout are included in a new paper in Autism in Adulthood (April 2020); my thoughts on small business being an industry that’s “too big to fail” were printed in a letter to The Oregonian (May 2020); and my description of an interesting thing was featured in a recent Ask Roulette newsletter (June 2020).

Where I’m Hanging

You might be able to find me idling on Undernet, most likely on #slowdog, probably not paying attention, and missing the old internet's sense of place.

What is a “now page”?

Most websites have a link that says “about”. Most websites have a link that says “contact”. So a website with a link that says “now” goes to a page that tells you what this person is focused on at this point in their life.

Derek Sivers

Last modified: Sunday, 02-Aug-2020 11:52:09 PDT.