How I’m Living

I’m in my second year living in St. Johns (November 2018) and twenty-third year living in Portland (March 1997). I’m in my fifty-first year of being alive (October 1969) and my fourth year as a diagnosed autistic (October 2016). I’m in my second year of trying to figure out my health (August 2018) — my lymph nodes remain a question — and my second year of trying to find a psychoconsultant both knowledgeable about adult autism and covered by my insurance (December 2018). I’m coming to the end of my third successful month of my first-ever medication for anxiety (February 2020), although not without some strain due to current events. I’m in my nth year of not feeling like much more than a failure and a fuckup. Like everyone else, I’m in whatever week month this is of a global pandemic.

What I’m Doing

After a long era of both disinterest a lack of interest in blogging, then a brief sojourn on Medium after my autism diagnosis, then a short exploration of, then a longer exploration of, I’ve migrated back to self-hosted WordPress and more or less am consistently back to blogging.

What I’m Reading

My new nonfiction read is Future Histories by Lizzie O’Shea; my continuing fiction read is Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir; and I’ve recently finished Gods of the Upper Air by Charles King. So far this year, I’ve read twenty books, with ten ready to read next and twenty-eight still to buy or borrow.

What I’m Watching

This week I’ll be watching Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Match Game, Stargirl, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The 100, and Marvel’s Agents of SHIELD. I’ve still making my way through the final season of She-Ra and the Princesses of Power. I’m doing a month of DC Universe, where I’ll try to get through season three of Young Justice, and season one of Swamp Thing. I’ve got a free month of HBO Max, so I’m going to try to get in the last two episodes of Watchmen. I’m in the second half of season two in a full series rewatch of Alias.

What I’m Listening To

In music, lately I’ve been listening to Brenda Khan, The Minders, Jed Whedon & the Willing, The Crabs, The Helio Sequence, Lissie, R.E.M., Cowboy Junkies, and Mazzy Star; in podcasts (which I don’t really do), I’ve been listening to Social Distance, and the occasional episode of Tech Won’t Save Us.

Where I’m Appearing

My thoughts on community during the pandemic appeared in a recent Civic Signals newsletter (April 2020); my views on autistic burnout are included in a new paper in Autism in Adulthood (April 2020); and my thoughts on small business being an industry that’s “too big to fail” were printed in a letter to The Oregonian (May 2020).

Where I’m Hanging

You might be able to find me idling on Undernet, most likely on #slowdog, and probably not paying attention.

What is a “now page”?

Most websites have a link that says “about”. Most websites have a link that says “contact”. So a website with a link that says “now” goes to a page that tells you what this person is focused on at this point in their life.

Derek Sivers